Hi, I’m Christian. I’m a Radical Honesty Trainer Candidate and currently enrolled in Tuulia and Pete’s Trainee Program.
I love clear communication, structure and feeling alive, light and connected–with myself and with others. I consider myself a minimalist and a recovering perfectionist. In addition to Radical Honesty, my heart beats for singing, music, dance and touch. I love to touch and be touched – both physically and emotionally. Currently, I’m combining some of these passions by learning contact improvisation. I am currently in the process of moving to Vienna and creating the life I want, and part of that is also helping others create the life they want.
This was not always the case.
In my childhood, I learned that I pretended in order to be liked by others and to avoid trouble. I put on a mask and showed myself in the way I thought others would like me to be. I was bullied at school and pretended to be fine when actually I was sad and angry. Instead of showing my emotions, I automatically grinned unconsciously and kept quiet so as not to draw too much attention to myself.
I was stuck in reactive patterns and had almost no ideas of my own about what to do with my time. Mostly, I did what my environment suggested, and I thought that was what I wanted. I thought too much about what others thought of me. I didn’t want to offend others and therefore tried to fulfill their expectations – with little success.
I spent most of my life in the IT sector. In 2010 I earned a BSc in Engineering from the University of Applied Sciences Hagenberg in Media Technology and -Design. I have 11 years of experience as a web developer at the agency am-teich and several years of experience as a photographer and workshop leader, where I was responsible for IT support and business development in addition to my main job.
After the breakup with my first girlfriend, I started doing personal development work and eventually discovered Radical Honesty. I attended my first RH workshop in Vienna in 2017. I walked into the room, anxious and nervous not knowing what to expect. I was numb and had little access to my emotions. I wanted to feel more alive and at the same time more at ease with other people. I was amazed at all of what was expressed that weekend. It was a completely new world and depth for me, which has not let go of me since. In addition to the Radical Honesty courses, I have also completed NLP trainings and am a licensed NLP Coach.
In 2022, I realized that my IT activities were no longer fulfilling me. I was tired and lacking energy most of the time. I often blocked myself through my thoughts. A carousel of thoughts was constantly spinning in my head, which did not let me sleep well. After years and many conversations, I decided to quit my job and make room for something new.
For me, Radical Honesty is accepting and living through all emotions to get over them, taking responsibility, reclaiming power and eventually finding more connection, lightness and aliveness.
If you want to learn more about me, visit my website (in German):